Apparently it's not a secret anymore... it's this... this blog. When I started it, no one knew because I didn't tell anyone. It was my journal, my diary, my confidante. But the word got out somehow and it seems I have readers!
Unfortunately, since I didn't think anyone would ever see it, I rambled a little more than I should have. I guess I prefer to spill my guts to the keyboard rather than to people, but in this case, it was worse than just letting loose on a person. I let loose on who knows who since it appears there are a couple of links to this blog. I don't know who has read it and who've I've offended.
So far, I count two.
Tonight we did an inventory of our spiritual gifts. My top 4 were as follows:
1. Knowledge
2. Craftsmanship
3. Teaching
4. Leadership
The careful reader (and I am now assuming I have some) will notice that Mercy and Wisdom did not make the list. Mercy wasn't even close, unless you count 21 out of 23 close. So combine that with my pernicious habit of only thinking of myself and you've got a recipe for hurting other people.
I won't name names, but... I'm sorry. I had no right to disparage anyone in public. Even if I thought it was private, it clearly wasn't and I should have realized that. I managed to hurt the best friend I have ever or will ever have.
How awful is that!
I am blessed to have a friend who would give her life for me or my family. She has been loyal beyond measure and I can honestly say I do not know why she values me so much. I don't deserve it. She is so giving and caring. She is always thinking of me and I am in awe of the fact that she has given me a second chance (third, fourth, fifth... who's counting?).
So, if you're reading this, let me know. If I haven't offended you yet, let me know that too. I'm sure it's a short list! Hurting people's feelings should have been in my top 4 spiritual gifts, but strictly speaking, I don't think putting your foot in your mouth qualifies.
So I'll continue to write and some of you will continue to read. Leave a comment once in a while so I don't forget you are out there.
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3 comments:
Michelle,
I have read and re-read your blog and much to my dismay, I could find nothing offensive or abusive - - after all, these are YOUR thoughts and comments and YOUR personal opinions... between you and God (by the way, I am pretty sure He is going to speak to you about a couple of things unrelated to the blog).
Do not dismay, continue to write, blast, verbally upchuck... whatever you feel like calling it.
I was opposed to blogs to begin with for fear of offending someone with my honesty - but afterall it is honest, eh? (oops, almost sounded Canadian, and you know how I feel about them! [is that offensive - would they understand it? Do I care?]).
Of course, keeping it a secret from your husband was probably not a, shall we say, brilliant move.
We love ya!
Sorry for contributing to letting your dirty little secret out!
Duh... I took OFF the obviously offensive stuff. But for the record, the count of offended people is up to 3.
hey there. I been reading your blog too. And I even noticed you put a link to my blog, which I haven't updated in a while!
Hopefully, I'll get back into the swing of things soon.
Happy Blogging!
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