Too busy

It's a familiar refrain, but it is starting to get to me. As I check my commitment level, I think I'm O.K. there. It's the fun events. And I don't want to miss a single one. I'm feeling so overwhelmed, I am quickly becoming paralyzed by the desire to do everything at once, so I actually want to do nothing.

But I can't do nothing and I can't do everything. I can do one step at a time. I feel awful everytime I get a phone call I can't return or an invitation I have to say no to. I so want to enjoy my time on earth and not feel like I'm being dragged through my life holding on by my fingernails.

Where to start? I have no idea. Do I not hang out with friends? Do I not see my family? Do I not do fun holiday activities? Do I stop homeschooling? Do I stop caring about the quality of our homeschool day? Do I not keep my kids involved in activities that they love? Do I not volunteer so much time for church stuff? Do I give up every house project and leave them unfinished? Should I leave our bathroom sink in pieces like it is as I type? or should I see about getting it repaired? See the problem? I don't want to give up a single thing.

So... last night I had a breakdown. It occurred when we were installing our new dishwasher (love the dishwasher!!!!). After two trips to Home Depot we thought we had it all figured out. Loaded the dishers, pushed the start button... no water. We figured out quickly that we had forgotten to turn on the water valve. After we turned that on... still no water. That's when I fell into hopelessness.

I think God must have taken pity on me, because when Tim tried it again, IT WORKED!!!

Thanks God. He says He will not give us more than we could handle. The water thing... more than I could handle.

Now I need an exta large portion of peace... and sleep.